Monday, August 31, 2009

Sex Type Thing

I'm going to stock up on the war. The war of my period. I'm going to have dark chocolate out the ass and chocolate milk. I'm going to have Gilmore Girls on stand by and some very nice pills names pain and killer. I'm going to have a box of tissues by my side and when I get cranky, some tea in the pot.

I will have my bathroom draw stocked with tampons and take warm showers, not hot/warm. I will listen to music like Soundgarden, Stone Temple Pilots, L7, Joan Jett, Bikini Kill, and some Janis Joplin. I WILL hit mother nature full force and when I say that it makes me think about those Tampax commercials with the woman on holiday at the beach and mother nature coming up to them.

On another note, I want a Gypsy Wagon. I want one so I can go to the next stepping stone on how wacky I am. I mean, I see myself in one, creating my art and being able to take care of my chickies ( Darla and Sabastine). I miss Sabastine dearly and being away from my tom cat makes me meow with heart ache. Listening to Crimson and Clover makes me wanna tear up a little.

But, Oh My GAWD, how cool would it be to just relax in a wonderful Gypsy Wagon, with big pillows and grapes. My imagination is running wild like a girl running threw flowers in a field. So Little House on the Praire of me.

(eh, my wi-fi connection keeps dropping so I'm just going to post)

Saturday, August 29, 2009


Thursday, August 27, 2009

i've always been crazy about eating in diners late at night.

i love being one of two people in our age groupsitting in sticky booths in greasy
dives in the middle of nowherestaring out through half fogged windows watching
cars pass on the interstate. pushing a small pile spilled sugar around with my fingertip as
the boy across from me sips coffee from the chipped mug as the waitress with the
mustache talks about how she's "really going to leave him this time" to an overweight cook.
the entire experience is just amazing. the orange, tungsten lightingthe smell of coffee
the sound of grease popping. there are always truckers. always. and they always smell
like cigarettes and they're always wearing dirty shirts and trucker hats and they haven't
had a chance to shave in a few days...but they talk sweet to the waitress and take their coffee black. we all know i have a strange affinity for street lights and empty parking lots and the
neon glow of the diner's sign reflected puddles in potholes peppered around the parking lots.
just really makes my heart skip a beat. being in the middle of nowhere, pouring into empty
car seats at 3 a.m.catching a glance as the stars as we pull onto the interstate with the taste
of burnt toast and hot chocolate in my mouth.
it's always amazing.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

This season

I still remember the dream that I had this morning, I still remember rolling over and seeing his face close to me. I remember hearing my phone ring in my dream and seeing who it was and when I went to go answer it I woke up. I woke up to 2 Minutes to Midnight by Iron Maiden and saw that mom was calling me.

"You need to come out here, now. Darla is loose, running around."

"What? How did she get loose? Be there in ten."

Haven't had my coffee and haven't cooked breakfest. I pulled on my jeans, put on my bra, and oversized t-shirt. Walk like a zombie to the living room and put on my shoes. Realize my shoes are under some clothes in our room. When I woke up he had already left for work, must have been 10mins before mom called. I grab my keys and purse and open the door to a chilly morning. The Fall season will come around early.

The drive to moms this morning was very, nice. I rolled the windows down and put on my ray bans. Felt the cool air on my skin and put my car on cruise control.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Rocky Top

Jerry O. Lowery Sr. passed away August 17, 2009. He was buried today and it was a beautiful funeral. He helped my mother with the passing of my father 17yrs ago. It was hard listening to his daughter talk about how amazing he was because each word was like a sting to making me cry. At the end of the service, they played his favorite song, Rocky Top. The music started playing and I cried even harder. Mom hugged me as I was handed tissue, telling me that Jerry will see my dad for us. I wasn't really thinking about that, I was thinking how I was talking to a girl that I work with that I would want to play my favorite music if I passed away.

Jerry will forever be with everyone he made feel special.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


Picked this baby up at Goodwill. $12.99 plus this amazing tax. I also picked up a very soft top from J. Crew (4.99). I love Goodwill, it's so nice to my wallet.

My home, our home

Welcome to part of our home. This isn't all of our small living space but I hope you like what you see. :)

I had this cat who loved to play with anything with the name paper and she had a fit with this lantern. It was a bit longer but the bottom was so tore up that I had to figure out what to do with it. I taped the bottom up and left it alone for about a year till I could figure out what to do with it. A few months ago i went to hobby lobby and bought these cool shells and string them on to the lantern. I had gotten the idea from the christmas project I did for Sabrina with the feather/ shell windchime.

This painting is the first one to be complete on large canvas. I have finished small ones but none this size and the ones I have yet to finish are still waiting. I was a bit sad to finish it because I had so much fun with it. I love how it turned out. It's a mix media painting. I used Gesso, Acrylic paints, and new paper with glue.

This is in the kind of kitchen area. I recently put the American flag up because it was laying on the tv. It belong to Nathans grandfather and I felt like it should hang again. The bass is mine, and the green lamp came from my aunts garage sell that never happened. The blue bucket has dog food in it for Darla and the clock was a steal from Essex ( $6 compared to $45 at Kohls). The Iron Maiden poster came from work and the Coors bar art came from a estate sell in town ( Birthday gift to Nathan, it's cheesy but I thought it was cool).

Ah, the livingroom, where we spend most of our time because we're poor. The lanterns starting from the left; blue one from mom, the green and red ones are from Pier 1. The wall hanging is from Renfest, a gift to Nathan. Lamp by the window is my mothers, it's really pretty, detail craving on the lamp and on the shade is dried roses from my moms yard.

This is the bathroom wall. The pictures are things I created 3yrs ago. The one with the lady was a finding myself. healing piece and the rayograph was done in high school in photography class. The frame came from Old Time Pottery when I worked there. There were three frames but the 3rd one was broken so I took the two.

There will be more, as soon as I finish clearing things out of the way. I doubt I'll show the bedroom because it's so bla right now. I can't make it all indian like the way I had my old room. Oh well!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Hair Music

New Hair. Pinned back. New color.

Interesting band.

I have to go to the library to upload videos so hang tight. Plus I need to edited them.

Friday, August 14, 2009

new look (kinda)

I colored my hair and it smells so good. I used Frutcis hair color and I'm going to wait on posting pictures. I'm stark naked! Well, kind of. ;o)

I've just been on this rebel girl music quest and Sleater-Kinney and Paramore are my two favorite bands. Speaking of Paramore, they're coming to the Ryman Nov 1. So going and I'll find a way. Since I've been listening to the girl rock music, I've taken it into my hands to change how I look, or change my hair. I cut about 1-2in. off and layered it a little. I need to cut it anyway because it's always getting tangled and split ends were evolving. Long hair really isn't for me anymore I guess. Sad face.

I miss using hair products anyway.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Kitty chase

I have 6 cats in the apartment and 2 kittens. The kittens Twiddle Dee and Twiddle Dum are chasing each other and attacking the three older cats. Another cat is sitting by my XBOX. I was going to set up at Kroger and try to give them to a hopful good home. It's nice having them here but I know this sweet time will go away by tomorrow.

Sabrina did take one kitten to her apartment and also took another one that was roaming around my apartment.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

New Camera

The Polaroid 420 was found at Goodwill for $10.00 and while I was putting my fingers all over it a bearded man was telling that the film is very hard to find and so is the battery. I knew he was telling me this because he too wanted it. I had no idea how it worked but I had to have it for my growing collection of vintage cameras. This is a hobbie I had started when I worked at Batey's Photography (No longer in business sadly).
Batey's had all sorts of camera's lined around the top of the ceiling. Packs of film filled the room and you could smell it. Two large machines the size of a car would run till open and close. When the store was being sold so were the machines and getting them out was no easy task. I miss working there, it was the only time I was truely happy while being a teenager.
The summer after Batey's I was able to work at Sugaree's (a new/vintage clothing store) with a nice woman but nothing come close to working at Batey's. Ever since I worked there I have kept my passion alive for taking pictures. I first started when I was 7. I would take my grandfathers polaroid and snap pictures of myself because from 7 up to 15 I did not have a digital camera. My dad had purchased a Canon T-50 when I was born and there are thousands of pictures with that camera from the I time was born till around the last day of high school.
I have one pack of 108 film and I'm hoping it works with this camera and even though I know the film might not work I will still use it for something. I'm a very creative person.
I've never liked to admit it but now since I have finished a very large painting I will be vain and say I am good at what I do.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Crap on Toast

Ok, so I try to go up to work with my camera and make myself look good. Taking pictures and really getting into a band but this one I just couldn't. I'd rather have the screaming creepy dudes come back who got our store in trouble because they had to shut the instore show down. I had left my camera at home and I was working. I couldn't hear for a week. However you do need to check out Madison Skylight .

I wish I could find my SD card, we have another show coming up and I'm working that. Lucky me.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

cash is king

I still think I deserve better and after finding out that they never called me to come in but let everyone else know really pissed me off. Really pushes my buttons.

Well, I have my car back but the right upper ball joint will need to be replaced soon. Like next week soon and then depending how long it takes I should have her back on the same day.

I wish I worked from home at this point and painted, play with Darla, and spent time with my sister.
Other then all this mess life has been treating me fair outside the mall. Nathan bought me a Creative Zen which has 32gb. Found it at Essex's and before we went there we went to the Goodwill in Smyrna and I found a Polaroid 420 for $10 bucks. I think I might have film for it some where at my moms.

I never question what to do, it tells me what to do. The photographs make themselves with my help. ~Ruth Bernhard
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