vapors

nathan& i went with his family to lynchburg, tenn yesterday& oooh was it ever so fun?

in between

it feel's like 2pm not 2am. being sick is awful.

pandora

for the first time i'm really sick this year& i'm doing everything in my power to get better after i go back to work tomorrow& get off work so nathan can talk me to nashville for a delightful christmas eve dinner. yet right now now, i'm all out of sorts& i'm kind of starting to feel better but man, you should have seen me at work two days ago. it was the second time i had to leave early sick but this time i threw up in the bathroom. i cam back out& one of my co-workers noticed& said something. i kind of started crying because having cramps& throwing up are not the most wonderful combination.

i felt terrible for leaving my assit. manager& temp associate on a busy shopping day& i mean so busy i show people i hadn't seen in years. which made it even worse because i looked like CRAP. my face was red, my face was soft& low because of the congestion& i couldn't hear out my ears. for one the music was too loud& i kept turning it down but it always found it's way with other figures to turn it's self back up.

my other assit. manager that was working that night called my boss to give the go ahead for me to leave. i was going to be so pissed if i didn't leave. here you have a girl working who is a) throwing up b) slightly coughing c) snot coming from nostrils &&& d) sore throat. after i got off work, i went to food lion on the way home to get some drugs. really nice drugs by the way. as i was standing in line, a lady they call Mama Judy show me huddled& clinging tightly to my drugs& said she could take the next person in line. i was last& had a clear shot to her line.

i saw you looking so ill honey& had to get you home quick.

i could have hugged the woman, now i know way they call her mama.

i came home, made some hot tea, blew my nose till it slightly hurt, to some rather nice pm bills, followed by NyQuil cold& flu& sucked on cough drops while watching Becoming Jane till i fall asleep.

i then woke up at 10& repeated it, over a period of hours of course. yet, i am now fully awake because my head has slept peacefully for hours. i haven't seen the sun or the outside. i didn't even want to look outside because it would just piss me off. i took some pain pills that mom gave me to make my cramps feel at ease& with all the combination of medication i've been on cloud nine.

anyway, that's what i've been up to!

things i' ve been doing this week

getting things settled for school- transferring to another school

cleaning out my car

about to work every single day so i've been getting a lot of sleep

trying to hang out with sabrina before she leaves for SCAD

making viynl bowls for gifts

painting gifts

cleaning my room slowly

trying to lose weight but have gained a little more.... urgh

simple enough

when i was little, about 3-5, i used to have the hardest time swallowing my own saliva. some times i would have to just spit it out in a napkin or in my pillow if i was to scared to get out of my bed. i remember i even forgot how to the breath. i also used to get tongue tied a lot& would have a really hard time completing my sentences or even starting my sentences. i would studder if i become nervous& would get aggravated& studder even more if i couldn't say what i wanted to say. it's like my brain would get stuck in mud. this would happen when people couldn't hear or was not listening.

i've been doing this every now& it has been getting on my last nerve. when i'm at work& someone ask me if this will turn their hair white e.i. bleach kit i'll try explaining to him/her that you should really start on the tips of your hair& work your way up. he/she gave me a look like i was an idiot. i wanted to tell he/her, "look, my mother has been a cosmetologist for the past 40+ some odd years, so i know what i'm talking about. i've also used bleach kit's in the past, 3 times." i told her instead "the top of your head is constantly heated& bleach is heat sensitive. if you start there first it'll be white& then your tips will be sun burst. if you dye your hair a curtain color it want look right. besides bleaching your hair isn't healthily for you anyway to begin with& damages/kills it."

this is bleach?

she thought it was white hair color, the kit said it in bright red big bold letter's on the front... how STUPID could you be?

her boyfriend looked at me& laughed. i felt so pissed off by then& extremely belittled. this woman was a moron& made me studder in aggravation. before this woman, a mother& daughter came to my register to buy rock band t-shirts. it's buy on get the 2nd half off so i rang it up& gave the discount.

"that'll be 30.81 ma'am."

excuse me? is that with the discount? did you even put the discount?

"well, one was 20 the other was 15 ma'am."

why couldn't you have done the most expensive. by this time the daughter rolled her eyes& walked away. i knew how that felt when a parent used to act all bigger than the person behind the counter& i swore i'd never do that. i haven't yet either.

"no, ma'am. i'm told to do the lesser one." she then told me to get a gift card (twilight of course)& put 50 on it. i thought she said 50.45 because she had an accent.

50... 5-oh. i hate the fact that i or anyone else is treated differently behind a counter. i have been in retail for 5yrs& i'm still treated like nothing. sometimes. i didn't say anything besides have a good night.

anyway... it's been a stressful week& it's about to get even more stressful. i have to work 35.5 hours next week& will only have christmas day off. i don't mind because as i told one of my co-workers, i'll be "BIG BALLIN'!" i added it all up& i'll be getting a nice check. of course the gov will get a nice chunk. i told myself that when i turn in my taxes& get my check if it's around 300 i'm going to bonaroo.

for now, i'll be stuttering, pausing& making an idiot out of my self to customers& teachers. which btw, i'm going back to motlow because i couldn't pull a grand out of my ass for school at MTSU. i'm too scared to borrow money since we're in a recession.


p.s. i locked myself out of my car tonight.... that sucked.

Potato

Little Giants: Pandas Make You Smile

pictures!

the strangers

lost, 5 years of my life after being scared out of my mind. of course my friend got a kick out of it. towards the end it had the best scary movie ending ever, to me. any movie that makes me crawl in a ball with my hood over my head is amazing.

weird right?

after that we played rock band 2,little big planet& mirror's edge. ( i LOVE little big planet)

classes

Spring Term 2009 - M00462388

CRN: COURSE	TITLE	STATUS	CAMPUS	CREDIT	LOCATION	SESSION: MEET TYPE: COURSE DATES	DAYS	TIME	INSTRUCTOR
11597: ART-1630-005	Three-Dimensional Design	Enrolled	Middle Tennessee State, Main	3	TODD BUILDING 127	1: CLAS: 01/15/2009-05/09/2009	M W	6:00 PM-9:05 PM	Sturgill, T
11729: PHED-1020-009	Beginning Social Dance	Enrolled	Middle Tennessee State, Main	1	MURPHY CENTER DS-A	1: CLAS: 01/15/2009-05/09/2009	T R	1:00 PM-1:55 PM	Ramos Grasa, F
11782: PHED-1150-001	Beginning Badminton	Enrolled	Middle Tennessee State, Main	1	ALUMNI MEMORIAL GYM ARENA	1: CLAS: 01/15/2009-05/09/2009	T R	9:40 AM-10:35 AM	Monasterolo, V
11876: PHED-1290-001	Tai Chi	Enrolled	Middle Tennessee State, Main	1	MURPHY CENTER GYM2	1: CLAS: 01/15/2009-05/09/2009	T R	11:20 AM-12:15 PM	Zhou, X
14924: ENGL-1020-106	Research and Argumentative Writing	Enrolled	Middle Tennessee State, Main	3	PECK HALL 319	1: CLAS: 01/15/2009-05/09/2009	T R	4:20 PM-5:45 PM	Brown, M
16822: ART-1640-006	Drawing II	Enrolled	Middle Tennessee State, Main	3	TODD BUILDING 117A	1: CLAS: 01/15/2009-05/09/2009	T R	6:00 PM-9:05 PM	Newman, M

Total Credit Hours: 12

Total Non-Credit Hours: 0


i'm going to be busy busy busy.... on the bright side i'll have fun classes but on the other hand, i'll have to borrow money.

will i be able too?

i have a meeting at 10a.m. with an adviser for MTSU. after that i go to work at 11-5p.m. after that i got to school to drop off my porfolio to my drawing teacher. after that?

i'm either seeing nathan tonight or might be going home to collect myself. i'm so tired.

mark downs

today at work we had a lot of mark downs. one of my favorite shirts went on clearance and some cute undies. i tried on some sexy bustiers but none of them made me feel pretty. i wish i could have seen what else was on clearance but the list was huge.

29 days till Lynyrd Skynyrd concert! i'm extremely excited.

cold feet, warm heart

i woke up today at 2:10 p.m. in disbelief i got up, fixed some fish sticks& took a shower. i'm now still sitting in my towel thinking of things i need to do in a hour before i go to nathans to do a power point due tonight. i still have to finish my art project for my drawing class.

how could i have slept that long? it's like i was in a coma...

Interpol

one of my favorite songs by Interpol.

bffz